A Widow...

I ama widow. That one word is so heavy. I am feeling so lost and alone, although there has been an endless stream of people coming by to show their love. I just want him. I want it to be him to hold me. I want it to be him comforting me, and it is not. I keep hearing how strong I am, but with kids don't you have to be? It is at night I just want to hear him breath in my ear and feel his arms hold me tight. I have know him half my life, he has always been their, even if no one else was. He was my everything, my husband, my lover, the ather of my children, my rock, how do you recover fromhaving all that taken from you? help