Sleep

I have not had any kind of regular sleep pattern since He left. I never had the best to begin with, but now it is even worse. I wonder how I am even functioning some days. I got two nights of good sleep this week, I don't feel as guilty for sleeping without him as I used to, but I know when I don't sleep it is because he is not here. How do you go from having someone hold you tight and close all night to nothing? i moved the kids room into mine, I could only sleep on the couch anyway, the bed was too big, and the small couch seems to at least "hold" so not so open.